Firstly, im TRULY SORRY to all my friends because
lately, i've not been in a good mood.
Moodswing all the time, and that's unhealthy!
One moment, i could laugh out loud, but the next moment,
i will feel irritated, annoyed, frustrated and down.
Im trying to make myself happy and satisfied with things around me.
Im learning how to accept things the right way because
i realized everything happens for a reason.
Unfortuantely, i can't. I couldn't figure out what went wrong in me.
Puzzled. Anxious. Anger. Insecure. Confused.
Am i too pressurized with school or is it just a ritual in one's life?
Is it me or is it just the things around me that's acting way too weird?
Am i unstable in terms of emotions?
I felt lost for a moment, not knowing where to go.
Then when i found a way out, i was happy and excited but
the next thing i know, i felt lost again.
I just couldn't fit in. There is some insecurity and unhappiness in me.
Im looking at the bright side of life, but when i leave that bitter memories behind,
i will miss it and then i will be start thinking of it again.
Yes, honestly, no one could understand my inner suffocation but me.
Maybe im being too selfsih here because im just thinking about myself, but
not sparing others a thought but is anyone
eligible enough to help me with this complication, NO.
Im complicated with myself, i don't know myself and im having a massive confusion.
When i wanna cry, i just stop myself because it's hurtful to see myself crying
(people might think im crazy!)
but there's no point keeping all those tears inside,
yet you're suffering till the egde, on the outside.
Problems after problems. Hope this fasting month will be a bless for me.
When im down with all this, i could only turn to one person, GOD.
I do believe that fairytales still exists.
Thanks for reading.
Again, IM SORRY MY FRIENDS FOR ALL THE MOODSWINGS.
what we could have been, 9:52 PM.
