Well something i fear the most happened. AAAAAHHHH, i always tried so hard to not to think about it but when i tried to avoid it, it hurts so much to be treated this way. Pushing me to edge where i can just fall anytime and that's when it's gonna be the most wonderful part of my life. But it's just a stupid hope because it will never happen and won't happen. I will just stay at the edge and wait till the time come and when the time comes, it's gonna be a major shocking. Forcing myself to do something against my needs is awful. I hope everything will just stick as it is because i gave up. Though i think giving up is not the way to solve a problem. Or maybe should i still hope, wait and persevere? Well i think it's a waste of time. Only a miracle could change everything. God will help me go through this problem using the right path.
There's a voice in my head saying "STOP! DON'T THINK ABOUT IT" but what am i suppose to do? I C.A.N.N.O.T. If i could stop thinking about this, it's hurtful because recalling the past makes me smile but when i start thinking about this is hurts even more terribly, hating myself for what im doing, hating you for what you're doing not, what you've done.
SHALL I MAKE THE FIRST MOVE AND TALK???

That picture definitely made me feel better!!! Love them so much!!!